I love love. I couldn't live without it. There is so much power in what it does to you. And when you feel quietly powerful, you're halfway there.
When you fall in love with someone and its done completely organically, with no pressure put on you by your family and friends, it's magical. When it happens by chance it feels like an Audrey Hepburn film. You lead life at your own pace. You feel in control and you feel entirely comfortable and happy with your existence. That's what we're all chasing.
If they don't feel like your SOULmate then you gotta gtfo asap. Don't try to make it work. Don't try to focus on their positives to numb the thought that you have daily: that deep inside, you know that out of the SEVEN BILLION people in this world, there are others who are better suited to you.
It's sad seeing people "fall" in love based on an insecurity or a fear of being alone. A love based on convenience is not pure. It's formed eventually to fortify your relationship which you are so desperate to have work out. But it only "works" out because you know that life will be easy when you follow that pathway. What's the point? Life's too short. Travel the world - there's so much to see and so many cultures to explore. Take the time to be by yourself and figure out who you are. Build a security where you only need yourself.
I would much rather be completely alone and find my love by chance... than have fear and insecurity determine the rest of my LIFE'S trajectory. Don't die knowing that you haven't experienced love by chance in its fullest, most beautiful form. If you have yourself then what is there to be scared of? Why can't you decide your own narrative?
Find someone will accept your opinions on religion, family or politics, support your emotional needs, get super drunk w you, eat you out in public and finger you in the backseat of the cinema until you can't walk. (Because you're committing urself to one person's genitalia they also gotta be v kinky. My horn levels are abnormal).
I feel like Dua Lipa on a rant. But I hope it helps someone, somewhere.
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I have never felt a more profound bond like this before. My love isn't contingent upon mine or others' expectations... it's instinctive. There's a reason that both of our names are mentioned together. Thank you God for giving me such a gift. I'm a lucky gal.
Vegan Wholemeal Blueberry Muffins
- 1 1/2 wholemeal flour
- 2 tsp baking powder
- 1 tsp salt
- 1/2 cup brown packed sugar
- 1/2 cup oil
- 2 tsp vanilla extract
- 3/4 cup soy milk
- 2 Tb white vinegar
- 1 cup blueberries (frozen or fresh. I used frozen)
Pre-heat oven to 200 degrees celsius and line a muffin tray.
Combine all dry ingredients and stir. Add oil, extract and milk.
Gently fold in blueberries and finally, add white vinegar.
Drop 2 heaped tablespoons into muffin holders and bake for 25-30 mins or until golden brown or a butter knife comes out clean.